Hiding Pain Within a Smile!

I see you sitting over there with a smile, showing as you do not care while you hide your pain deep inside. You put your heart on the line, love with all that you are yet receive hurt in return. You lend a hand of friendship while you are not allowed to be a friend with another. People do not think before they speak or should I say; type! They want to see things in their own eyes while they forget to try to see things within other people’s eyes. They want what they want without any regard to what the other person wants. It’s not that they aren’t going to continue to be your friend yet have a heart that is large enough to be friends with many. A heart of gold that yearns to be noticed by another that resembles it. A heart that desires to find someone that can see past the picture, read the between the lines, and hear the unspoken words that they hide within.

Cherish the heart that lies within by truly looking past the outer shell to see the heart and soul of the man in front of you. It is not about what he can buy you but rather how he can make you feel within yourself. Love like it is all that is within this world for when we leave this world, that love is all that will be left behind. The memories that you have shared with them, the moments of true love you spent within their arms, the laughs you shared, the tears you felt, and the feeling of truly knowing that they have left this world without a doubt that they were loved. For it’s those first moments that you have shared which you wish that you could get back. If you love someone, always let them know, show them, and never let a moment slip by without making a memory. Dare to dream, and dream to love, love to live, and live to make every moment count for we have one life to live, and it’s up to us to make it the life that we dream upon. 

Surrender of the hearts

Gentle caresses upon my skin
making my skin tingle with delight
sending urges throughout my body
causing me to come a little closer

Your eyes daunting me with pleasure
enticing me to fall into your arms
hands roaming upon my skin
sofly caressing every inch

Softly planting kisses on my lips
as you run you hands through my hair
pulling me softly into you
feeling the urgency upon you

two hearts joining into one
souls that complete each other
sending years of pain away
letting love take its place..

Laying within each others arms
exhausted from pure ecstasy
drifting slowing off into sleep
in heart and soul they are now one

Rolling the Dice of Love

THE SKY TURNING DARK AND GRAY

MY HEART RIPPING APART INSIDE

AS PAIN COMES RUSHING BACK IN

WANTING TO JUST RUN AND HIDE

I TOOK A CHANCE AND LOST

NEEDING YOU TO HONESTLY SEE

PIECE BY PIECE THE WALL WENT DOWN

LETTING YOU KNOW THE INNER ME

ONCE AGAIN FEELING SO LOST AND ALONE

STILL YEARNING TO FIGHT FOR THIS LOVE

KNOWING THAT IT WAS MEANT TO BE

FOR WE WERE BROUGHT TOGETHER FROM ABOVE

WAITING TO SEE YOUR NAME LIGHT UP

TEARS BUILDING AS THEY BEGIN TO FALL

NEEDING TO FEEL YOU ARMS AROUND ME

TELLING ME LETS JUST FORGET THEM ALL. 

WORDS COME POURING FROM MY HEART

WISHING I WAS THERE SO YOU COULD SEE

THAT WHATEVER THIS IS WE HAVE

WITHIN MY HEART IT IS MEANT TO BE

YOU WANTED THIS HEART

WHILE WORKING HARD TO ACHIEVE

HAVING IT AS YOUR VERY OWN

WHILE LEAVING IT TRYING TO BELIEVE

PIECE BY PIECE THE WALLS WERE SHATTERED

LETTING YOU FILL IT WITH LOVE AGAIN

WANTING ALL THAT YOUR HEART OFFERS

NOW  WAITING FOR WHEN IT BEGINS

Eyes Wide Open

Another night alone, trapped within my mind,

wonder what i did so wrong ? what was my crime ?

Swallowing whatever the excuse is, like broken glass shards,

I didn't know loving someone was supposed to be this hard.

Is this what forever is supposed to be ?

didn't that dream involve you next to me ?

Where are you ? I don't know, not sure I care,

don't know wether to scream or to yank out my hair ?

Promises made, promises broken,

so much said, so much unspoken.

Needing you here with me so much,

wanting nothing more than your touch.

Pain and lonliness have come back again,

long lost, welcome home my friends.

Thought we had parted company once and for all,

should have known better, now another fall.

How much can a heart take,

before it's beyond repair, what difference does it make ?

Bring it on, I can take the pain,

what difference does it make if I never love again ?

Daddy's Little Cowgirl

the old black stetson hangs on the wall
boots, battered and worn lay below
a cherished picture,displayed with pride
love of this man would always show

a tired old cowboy was taken away
to heaven as his final resting place
hearts broken, tears wept by all
leaving nothing but an empty space

time passed, grass covered the grave
words spoken, tears swelled inside
memories we will no longer make
for together, that was our very last ride

body goes weak, heartbroken and alone,
clouds begin to boil , trees begin to swirl
sudden calmness, as I hear the soft spoken words
daddy's here, you will always be safe my lil cowgirl

safe,for I am always near,
here is where I will always be
with a heart of gold, yet tough as steel
take pride my little cowgirl, you are just like me. .

written August 20,2006
In loving memory of Eddie Lee Day Dec 7, 1943 to Dec 13, 2005
by..Edie LeAnn Day (Cain)

Journey to Eternity

Hand in hand
heart to heart
side by side
step by step

live to love
love to live
tear to cry
laugh for joy

eye to eye
smile to smile
body to body
soul to soul

prayer to heaven
heaven to you
you for me
our love for eternity

Surrender

Our love grows deeper with everyday that passes
a bond connecting stronger with every touch

We say goodnight, with a soft kiss & gentle hug
as I watch you walk away with my heart in hand

Lying down alone, wrapped in your jacket to keep you near
heart aching from missing you ever so badly

choice made to take this slow, letting friendship grow
along with the love that we no longer control

The moment I laid my eyes upon your face
knowing you are the missing half of my soul

Wandering what I must have done right in life
God to have blessed me with my one true love.

Two Souls, Two Hearts

a smile that lights up the inner soul
eyes that sparkle, twinkling bright
heart pounding, hearing your voice
nervous, curious to hear more

a connection building stronger
sameness, yet different
two souls, two hearts
yearning for love

wanting to feel love again
unwilling to accept just any
eagerly looking for the love of a lifetime
a love, that bonds their inner souls

Your eyes, the windows to your soul
seeing deeply into your heart
knowing exactly what you want
for my heart needs the same

willingness to explore it all
walls down, a heart exposed
two souls, two hearts
connecting quickly

Desire, wanting to know more
need, to see where it can go
want, what the eyes can see
feel, what only the hearts can

Angel Kisses

baby, let me take away all your pain,
let me hold you close, ease your heart
lay in my arms, lets love the night away
let me place angel kisses all over lips

come here baby, let me love your pain away
come here baby, let me kiss your tears away
oh baby..thats the way, kiss me more
yeah baby, hold me close to your heart

show me where your pain is baby
look into my eyes, lose yourself in my touch
forget the past, lets a love that lasts
hold me close, lets love the night away

come closer baby, kiss these lips that are made for yours
come closer baby, feel these arms that fit your touch
let me hold you close, let me love away the years of pain
let me kiss away your pain with these angel kisses

lay down with me baby in the bed of love
lets love our way to our own heaven on earth
let go of the pain and let me love you
remember you will always be my baby.

come her baby, let me love away your pain
come her baby, let me kiss away the past
let me hold you close forever and always
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine

Angel kisses upon your lips
fall into the arms of love
let go of your past
for our love will burn eternally..


(c) Written by Edie LeAnn Day
October 16,2006

The Rose.

Love is like a rose on a spring day
beautiful as you watch it bloom
petals so delicate to the touch
a scent that lures you in

in awe of its beauty as it opens
unable to take your eyes away
the maginificence of its perfection
each petal unlike the rest

gently touching its blooms
carefully not to disturb
yearning to feel its softness
to take in it's sweet smell

how quickly it can fade
without precious handling
without food and water
to keep it thriving

slowly it slips away
desperately trying to revive it
wishing you could turn back time
to the rose's splendor of perfection

Wishes for you

seeking out his name
hoping he is doing the same

He is out there looking for me
for what we will share is meant to be

finding him will be a great delight
knowing within his arms, I will be alright

our hearts will know right from the start
that our love comes deep within our hearts

for the one I seek has finally been found
dreaming someday our heart will be bound

together hand in hand, life we will share
alone and apart, our hearts no longer can bear

sitting her watching dropletts of rain
wishing I could take away your pain

sending you love from my heart
for you to have a brand new start

Imprints on the Heart

Baby, I am the girl that walks softly in your dreams,
the one that lies down beside you when you feel alone,
easing your fears, softly touching your heart of stone
turning it back into a gentle, innocent heart, ready for love.

Baby, I am the one softly kissing your tears of pain away
the girl that you dream about deep down inside your soul
yearning and wanting what only her heart can bring to you,
a love that knows no end, a love that heals all wounds..

Walking softly through your dreams, making you feel alive again
leaving footprints in your heart, wanting you to follow closely
find me baby, I am walking slowly throughout your every dream
waiting for you to find me, a heart yearning to be touched

Dream baby, dream of me, dream of the love we could share
baby, there is nothing I wouldn't do for you
I would walk across hot coals to feel you in my arms
take my hand baby, let's fly away together hand in hand

dream baby, dream, come closer and take my hand
lay down with me on these soft gentle clouds of cotton
you dream me into you dreams everynight baby
allowing me to softly walk the passages of your heart

here I am baby , awake from your dreams
remember me when you are awake
can you feel the imprints I left in your heart
baby,oh baby, dream me to reality

Softly placing angel kisses upon your lips
lighting tracing the trail to your heart
awake baby, open those beautiful eyes
dream baby, dream me right into your life.

Our Fairy Tale Man

as a little girl watching walt disney movies
standing on top of daddy's feet
as he twirled me around dancing
smiling, lost in a dream

looking back at the days of yester year
at the dreams of an innocent little girl
who wanted the fairy tale man they showed
who still walks the recesses of a girls heart

all little girl dreams of the fairy tale man
that will someday sweep us off our feet
or ride up on a white stallion to take us away
riding off into the sunset to a perfect place

girls, spend their whole lives dreaming
of our fairy tale man that was taught to us
through the words of a writer's pen
leaving us yearning for our prince charming

Our fairy tale man is in our hopes and dreams
whether he is in the movies we watched
or the girls that was a true daddy's girl
who dreams of finding a man just like daddy.

One day, I will find my fairy tale man
only mine will have the heart of my dad
his strong shoulder's to hold me up
his arms that keeps me safe from harm.

Where, Oh Where, Can you be?
Is my Prince Charming waiting for me?
Can he be all that I dream of he is?
Waiting for my fairy tale man to sweep me off my feet.

Dancing to the beat of our hearts.

Come take my hand, dance with me under the stars
let me take you in my arms and hold you close to me
baby, the scent of you has me breathless
cause you are the one I dream about everynight

Your heart keeps me drawn to you
while you are invading mine
leaving me completely speechless
wanting so badly tell you what is in my heart

baby, are you willing to accept this heart
that wants to spend the rest of my life
making you happy, being the smile upon your face
and the glimmer of happiness in your eyes

Come take my hand, dance with me under the stars
let me take you in my arms and hold you close to me
baby, the scent of you has me breathless
for you are the one I dream about everynight

I want twirl you around the dance floor of life
till I dance myself right into your heart
while holding you closely feeling you next to me
as we dance to the beats of our hearts falling

baby, slow dance with me to a tune of love
of happiness and innocence we dream about
everynight as we sleep alone in our beds
that are always so big and empty

Come take my hand, dance with me under the stars
let me take you in my arms and hold you close to me
baby, the scent of you has me breathless
for you are the one I dream about everynight

Arisen

Time passed, day by day
slipping further away
closer to the edge
of no return

fighting day by day
trying to make sense
of life that is no longer
worth even living

one by one
you went away
tearing apart this heart
till there is nothing left

You all made your choices
now it's time for me
to live my life for me
to fulfill my own dreams...

Stolen Moment

Stolen Moment
This poem is written for a friend...


I have longed for your warm embrace
To fall deeply within your arms
Eyes closed, mind blank
No thought to the outer world

Within this moment in time
Looking up into your face
Passion consumes me
From your warm brown eyes

Yearning to feel your touch
Upon my soft tender skin
Hands roaming my body
Sensually arousing me

A gentle tug of my hair
Passionately kissing me
Running my nails across your back
Sending chills over your body

Lingering on your face
Your eyes mesmerize me
They are the portals
Of your hidden soul

Our bodies intertwine
Passion envelops us
Losing all sense of time
Forever in a stolen moment


© Written by Edie LeAnn Cain

Igniting Our Stolen Moments

This poem was written for a friend....

Thoughts of you
Consume my body
Constant smiles
Of our stolen moment

Consumed in comfort
Wrapped in our blanket
I can still smell your presence
A Feeling of everlasting trust

Not wanting to leave the bed
Memories of our embrace
Tender moments of passion
Awaiting our next stolen moment

Lingering thoughts of you
Heart pounding hard
Looking into your eyes
Melting me with your voice

Secretly we plan
For our next embrace
Passion growing stronger
Awaiting our next stolen moment

Is Love Life's Cruel Fate?

The day has came to an end
bringing loneliness
along with the darkness
of night.

Dreaming of a life
filled with love
being picked up and carried
off to bed.

Wandering where she went wrong
in giving her love away,
maybe they were right
she loved too much.

Taking their love to heart
believing every word
realizing that is what they were,
just simple words...

Is giving your heart and soul
to a man so wrong?
Are we not supposed to believe
in the one we love?

They want our hearts completely
yet walk away when gotten,
Is love just a game
or life's cruel fate?

More than just a face........

This is me just getting my feelings off my chest. When did this world get to where it is all about a girls looks or size, or what they have and the same goes for the guys.
This past year has really been a true eye opener for me. I feel like I have been stranded on some island forever and now being rescued and brought back to civilization. Sad thing is, I would rather go back to my island.

Apparently people's feelings are just toys. We open up and try and let people get to know us and spend lots of time baring your soul to them until they get bored and move along to the next person.I have seen so many people get hurt by this and I think it is so very wrong. For me, I am somewhat afraid of caring. I had my heart shattered many times over this past year and I don't want to be done like my friends have been done.

I am an honest soul, one that is open to all and refuses to hide who I am , whether good or bad. I hate the fact that people see just a face. Today alone, I have gotten some of the strangest messages. I am not one of the girls that will just go out and have sex with people. I am the type that wants the love and romance to go along with it. I will not be a playtoy for anyone. Yes, I have been busy and it is hard for me to get away and meet with people and I am so very sorry, but I am trying to build a few things up for myself for once.

I am not one of these girls that is out chasing money, for it does not impress me. I am not one that is into physical belongings or a person size. I am one that looks for the inner soul and I have been told that I can see right through people, good or bad, my eyes will see.
I just laugh at how long the cat and mouse game seems to go these days. If they don't get what they want right off the bat, they get bored and onto the next pretty face or handsome guy. That truly makes me sick.

I am sorry if I piss off any of my friends over this, but come on guys, I am more than a cute face. I also have brains and well, I use them daily. I have businesses that I am building which makes it hard for me to get away.

I am just a girl, that know's what she wants in life and I do not want players or one that is just chasing a piece of booty. Maybe I do need to go back to my island and keep believing that women are more than just that. We do have hearts and not all of us are bad..the same with men.
I am not your exwife and I don't want to be put into the category with her. I am me "LeAnn", a girl with a great heart and I know that and well, I know what I want and what I will not tolerate. I want a guy that, if I am what he wants, know's how to keep in touch with me everyday...and does NOT plan on dating other women...As the same goes with me when I am dating one...

Well enough of my temper coming out...just sick of all the damn head games being played......so if you want this girl....be honest, truthful and faithful.....she is worth every bit of it......

Intrigue

Intrigue
Smiling and thinking
as the wind blows
hard and cold
against the windows

Snuggling tighter in the blanket
thinking of you
wishing you were here with me
cuddling closely.

A warmth feels my heart
of the unknown
passion burning deeply
inside of me.

You intrigue my mind
constant curiousity
Could you be the one
who is meant to be?

Are you the one
that has lit the flame
of passion
burning deeply inside?

Daddy, can you hear me?

Daddy, how I wish you were here,
to hold me tightly
to comfort me in hurt,
Can you feel me missing you?

Daddy, where did I go wrong?
I fight daily to remain being me
to keep an open heart
to let love find me again.

Daddy, take away this pain
that has this heart breaking,
keep me from hiding
behind walls..

Oh Daddy, how I need you so,
what I wouldn't give
to have you here with me
even for just a moment.

Daddy, help me quickly
before I make a mistake
of giving up my last chance
for happiness....

Tired of all the games
they play with this heart,
tired of opening up my heart
to have it stomped on.

Daddy, come to me one last time,
hold me close
please Daddy, ease this heart
of all the pain it feels...

Memories of the night...

Lying there in bed alone
thinking of the man
that showed her
true passion.

His arousing sensual touch
that made her body tingle
with desires of passion
he was showing her.

Their bodies rocking
together in motion
as passion grew
into true satisfaction...

Softly kissing his lips
silently thanking him
for letting her know
she was truly wanted.

Prelude to Love

Melting with your every smile
falling deeper into your eyes
snuggling tighter within your arms
for your love fulfills me

I am just a girl with a dream
of love and happiness
like everyother girl
on this earth.

I found my dream
within your arms
everynight as you
hold me tight.

I long for your kisses
to feel your arms around me
looking into your eyes
just seeing your love.

You see the looks and the smarts
hoping someday that you will see
that my heart belongs to only you
forever until the end of time....

My Vow to You.

You are always on my mind,
with the love you give me
keeping your heart next to mine
vowing to always protect it.

I give my heart to you
from this day forward
our love growing
with every passing day.

Soon our two hearts will be one
uniting our families together
you will always have my love
till the end of time.

Baby, you are my world
the reason my heart beats
the smile upon my face
the love in my heart.

I know its hard for you
to believe in my love
from this day forward
the proof will be shown.

I will hold you every night
kiss you every moment
love you with all my heart
and never let you go.

Two Become One.....

Two souls bonding as one
through cherished vows
exchanging of gold bands
of eternal love.

Two hearts beat as one
loving flowing
pure as silk
as two become one.

Two families joined
together as one
love growing stronger
with every passing day.

Two hurt souls
found by love
Two broken hearts
healed by the other.

Winter's First Love

Baby, you walked right in
and took me by surprise
swept me off my feet
and stole my heart.

You renewed my faith
in what love was
making me believe
in honesty.

My heart proud
bursting with joy
as I heard those words
Will You Marry Me?

It took me by suprise
but my heart
was so full of love
Yes, Baby I Will.

Standing side by side
holding hands
xchanging rings and vows
as we become husband and wife.

Laying closely in your arms
looking down at your ring
my heart filling with joy
knowing you are my husband.

Baby, I want to make you happy
everyday of our lives together
showing how honored I am
that you made me your wife.

(c) Edie LeAnn Day Wheat

Love Sent From Daddy

The crisp cold air gently blowing
chills ripple my skin
as I feel your arms
wrap softly around me.

Nestling closer to you
feeling your warmth
safe from harm
here in your arms.

Baby, you are a blessing
sent from heaven
from the man I miss
to heal my pain.

You have his smile,
his heart within yours
a kindness that only
you and he have.

I know he is near
for you are here
holding me close
easing my tears.

Dad knew I needed you
he knew you needed me
together we share
a love of a lifetime.

Thank you Dad,
for the love you sent
to heal my pain
of missing you.

Thank you Baby,
for answering him
for loving me
making me your wife.

(c) Edie LeAnn Day Wheat
December 5, 2006

One Lonely Twinkling Star

Looking out the window
into the darkness
tears softly falling
from missing him.

The sky filled with stars
one lonely star twinkling
with every roll
of her tears.


Daddy, is that you
up there in the sky?
Are you the angel
watching over me?

Baby girl, I am here
in every tear you shed
in every breath you take
every beat of your heart.

I know you miss me,
and your heart is breaking
from us being apart
and I miss you too.
Sweetheart, I knew you were lonely
afraid to love again from being hurt
but I sent you a man
that you have dreamed of.

Baby girl, look at the man beside you
holding you closely in his arms
loving you as deeply as I do,
for he is my love for you.

Daddy, I love you too
now I know I am okay
for I have him and you
to forever love me dear.

(c) Edie LeAnn Day Wheat
December 5, 2006

Pain Overcomes Happiness

Sadness overcoming happiness
as memories of you
fill this heart and mind
missing you so badly.

Daddy, your baby girl
has never forgotten
and has never let go
of the memories we made.

This heart still aches badly
wishing I could turn back time
just one last time
to say, I love you.

Daddy, so much ahead this month
from your birthday, the day you left us
and the day we put you to rest
to Christmas, the day you loved.

Wishing we could turn back time
to the times we shared together
the times we rode side by side
over the pastures of green.

Once again, questioning the Lord
on why he had to take you
when I needed you down here
to guide me the rest of the way.

Daddy, I need you so much,
you were my rock, my strength
the one that kept me fighting
to right the world from wrong.

A year has passed
hearts still broken
tears still falling
from love for you.

Daddy, come to me
one last time,
hold me close
make the pain go away.

You are still my hero,
I proudly display the heart
that you gave to me
in every word I write.

With every tear that falls
upon my face is from love
that you have given me
and how much I love you.

(c) Edie LeAnn Day Wheat
December 5, 2006

Momma, Cry No More

Dedicated to Ivy from her daughter Gracie, her angel watching and keeping guard over her.

Momma, cry no more
for I am right here
sitting beside you,
holding your hand.

Momma, cry no more
for I am safe from harm
I am smiling down
watching over you.

Momma, cry no more
look up at the sky
see that twinkling
that's me smiling down at you .

Momma, cry no more
when you feel the warmth
upon your skin, that's me
holding you close.

Momma, cry no more
I haven't forgotten you
for you are the one
that gave me life.

Momma, cry no more
our time was short
but it carrys me through
till we are together again.

Momma, cry no more
for I am now an angel
with golden wings
watching over you.

Momma, cry no more
for I am the warmth
you feel against your cheek
wiping away your tears.

Momma, cry no more
our love will never end
for I am your daughter
and you are my mother.

Momma, cry no more
for he needed me here
to watch over everyone
and keep them safe.

Momma, cry no more
for you are my idol,
the one I look up to
and I Love you too.

Written December 13, 2006
(c) Edie LeAnn Wheat

Till The End of Time

There goes my heart
taking it with one hand
for he doesn't want part
because he is a man.

There goes my soul
hoping I would fall
for the world to know
he has it all.

He's flashing that smile
a heart he did steal
without a second thought
knowing his love is real.

Here he comes back again
this time I show mine
for I am part of this man
till the end of time.

(c) Edie LeAnn Wheat
written December 18, 2006

Reflections

Her hazel eyes stared into the mirror
trying to see what he see's
wanting to see what is so special
about herself as he says.

She is just a simple girl
with simple dreams
wants and wishes
to just be loved.

A tender loving heart
broken many times
healed within an instant
by his love.

A tear trickling down her cheek
wishing just for once
that he could see
what she see's.

(c) Edie LeAnn Wheat
December 17, 2006

Silent Whisper's

Your arms around me, holding me close to you,
feeling the beat of your heart upon my skin,
eyes closed, sleep peacefully my love,
softly speaking silent whisper's.

Lightly running my finger's through your hair,
gazing lovingly upon the face of my hero,
wishing you could feel my love for you
softly speaking silent whisper's.

Delicately running my finger's upon your face
tracing the face that walked in my dreams
so many nights thoughout the years
softly speaking silent whisper's.

You have made a heart come alive again
filling it full of love and happiness
from just being yourself
softly speaking silent whisper's.

The girl, you hold within your arms
loves and wants you for you,
not what you think she needs
softly speaking silent whisper's.

Words lost within this heart
unable to come out
hear me now my love
softly speaking silent whisper's.

(c) Edie LeAnn Wheat
December 17, 20006

Everlasting Memories

His eyes, an ocean blue, inviting
waves crashing around you,
the warmth surcumbs
the senses of the heart
of everlasting memories.

His arms, strong and safe,
holding out the world at bay
protection from harm
secure within
leaving you everlasting memories.

Two hearts once bound
by love, came undone,
heartbroken, she slips away
tears of pain, softly falls
lost in everlasting memories.

Where did love slip away?
knowing I wasn't the one
that could fulfill your dreams
of love here after
only leaving everlasting memories.

Time has slowly drifted by
two souls searching other paths
always held together in friendship
while a tiny trickle of love remains
holding on tightly to everlasting memories.

(c) Edie LeAnn Wheat
Written January 6, 2007

Paybacks Are Always Fun

A smile comes across her face,
thoughts running in her head
wet hands running down her neck
laughing, looking over at their bed.

Laughing, shaving cream,warm water,
yanno, paybacks really are fun
getting them when they least expect it
sitting back laughing when it's done.

Shaved one eyebrow, that's a thought
could even put him some makeup on
go to sleep baby, sleep peaceful
for tomorrow you will know I won.

Go ahead, peak over here at me
show me those baby blue eyes
for tomorrow I will have my laugh
when everyone ask's you why...

A mustache half gone perhaps
maybe a strip of hair gone
just remember, paybacks are hell
for tomorrow baby, I will have won.
Remember all the things that you have done
wet hands on my neck, wiggling my chair
as I try and type to all my friends
paybacks, just don't know when or where.

Giggling, oh yeah, that is a good one
yep, I could get him that way too,
never once letting on to my plan
just know, I will get even with you.

Tears rolling from laughing so hard
knowing you really have no idea why
trying your hardest to figure it out
bumfuzzled as you let out a sigh.

What's wrong baby, are you curious yet?
you can't figure out what I am up to
for all the onry things that you have done
just know all the paybacks I owe to you.

Oh now you have really done it
that ice was cold down my back
oh yeah, paybacks are really on
remember to laugh when you hit the sack.

What goes around, comes around
that is what my grandma said
laughing as tears are rolling
looking over at you in bed.

(c) Edie LeAnn Wheat
2007

Frustration Slowly Building

An old life ends where a new on begins
lost, trying desperately to find her place
treading softly, being careful not to step on toes
while getting walked on at every turn
frustrated, trying to make a new home.

Locked in a room, music blaring
trying to muffle the fights in the other room
turning to people that know and understand her
desperately needing some kind of connection to the past.

She speaks her heart, yet simply go unheard
aggravation, tell me again why I am here?
Can you honestly tell me that you truly hear me
or simply choose to take what I say lightly?

Wanting this new life, needing things to change
heart wrenched, confused, tears burning, threatening to fall
screaming loudly inside, aggitated for things going undone,
Can you truly not see how deeply I feel about this?

Looking Beyond the Exterior.

What is love? It means so many things to different people yet to some it means everything. It is the breath we gasp as the man we love walks by, the goose bumps upon our skin when he accidentally brushes yours. It's the smile upon your face when you notice he has looked your way. It is a heart about to burst when you can feel the love he has for you. Love isn't about possessions or what another person can buy you. It's about how they make your heart feel, the feeling you have all day waiting and yearning for them to come home. To know that you will sleep safely within their arms, and wake up looking into their loving eyes. Love is not about what you see on the outside yet it is the inner soul that yearns to find its match. The match that fits perfectly, and that will bind two hearts into one forever. Love is knowing how the other one feels without them saying a word. Love is a treasure, and as breakable as glass.

Love is something that we all search for our entire lives while we let it slip away as easily as we find it because we don't continue to nurture and continue to make it grow. Once you find love, you cannot think that it will always be there, always be as strong as it once was or expect that if you don't spend time working on it, that it will not end. Love is like a rose, if you nurture, feed it, and allow it to grow, it's beauty will forever bloom. If you find love, treasure it, enjoy it, look beyond the person in front of you to see the person that is within because for what you see on the outside probably still will never compare to the beauty that is within that person.

To Love or Not; That is the Question!

Love! What is it that people cannot figure out or spend their lives searching for it? What is it about love that drives so many people crazy while destroying the hearts of many others? Why is it when a person gets their heart broken that they run the opposite direction as fast as they can when the word love enters the conversation? Hearts get broken, that is a simple fact but rather than hiding behind a wall, opens your eyes and realize that your true soul mate waits. Love hurts as we have all felt the pain before but we have ventured on to find the one we are meant to find. Hiding will only leave you in the grasp of the darkness called sad and loneliness. The halls of darkness surround you only because you do not dare to walk the paths of happiness, contentment, and love. Each path we take can be end with sadness, heartbreak, or simply confusion from why it all ended however; how will you ever know if you have found true love or not if you do not dare to take the walk or open your heart to allow it to enter?

I have recently watched friends get their hearts ripped out by love, and while some continue the battle to keep things together, the others are wishing their exes the best of luck in their happiest adventure. Love isn’t about hurting another because it comes to an end but rather showing the heart you have by wishing them the best while you pick up the pieces of your shattered on to take a new path that could brighten your life beyond any dreams or wishes that you could have. I try to get everyone I know to see that even though your heart is broken at the moment, and the future they see seems bleak, it truly isn’t, for their world is clouded by pain while they need to shove that cloud of doom out of the way in order to see the beautiful bright light of love trying to gleam its way through. If we look into the deep recesses of our hearts, we all remember the warmth that we have often felt from the gleam of love however; many allow fear to rule their lives instead of kicking fear out of their lives. Fear is cruel place that we all hide from in so many ways while we can all break free from it if their heart and soul is truly strong.

We all have the strength to fight while many would rather use the words “I can’t or don’t know how” however; that is their way of choosing to be weak or scared to take another chance. Life is a cruel place as we all can see but we only get one chance in life, and I, personally, refuse to look back on my life with regrets or the two little words “what if?” I want to know that when I leave this world to go onto the next superior stage of my life that I left my mark on this world, and in a lot of hearts. I won’t deny that I continue to get my heart broke or that it is a daily struggle to not give up on love through all my different relationships whether it be my husband, my child, my mother, my sisters or my friends but even though my heart gets broke, I refuse to allow my heart to turn an empty bottomless pit of blackness. I could sit here and allow my heart to ponder daily about the many times that I have allowed love into my life just to see it fail however; those loves simply weren’t meant to be or they still would be. There are many things more important in this world to fight against but can you honestly say that love is one of them?

You watch two people truly in love, and yearn to know what it feels like yet you hide behind that cold stone wall instead of stepping out in front it is, and putting yourself as the target. Is yearning making your heart feel fully complete? No, it’s just driving you deeper and deeper into the cold recesses of loneliness and fear. Is that where you want to stay or can you truly explain to me what real love is? For real love is not simply saying those three little words “I love you” because anyone can say them without truly meaning them while true love goes so much deeper than that. True love is finding inner strength that you never knew you had, giving up a part of you that you never thought you would, and putting someone else in front of you. It isn’t allowing someone to walk over you but rather beside you hand in hand. It is about wanting someone to be happy even if their happiness is with another. It is about learning how to control your temper, loving someone enough to say “I am sorry”, and learning to not say things in anger without thinking. True love is allowing another person to see you, inside and out, for all that you are, showing all your faults, weaknesses, and mistakes.

I have always told my children that there are two different kinds of love which are “to love them as a person” and “being in love with someone” however; it is up to us to figure out which one that we feel, and if you truly listen to your heart, it will show you what you truly want to see. I am by far a professional when it comes to love but I allow love to guide me down the many paths of life which I will honestly say that no matter what, I do not regret any of them whether my heart was shattered or not because I was always taught that “what doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger”. As we can all testify to that by living through the life shattering loves that we have felt however, we live through it, and have found love again. We have felt the many tests of love along the way, and many of us have wanted to give in while we decided to stay and fight with all that we have.

We get angry, we feel lonely, unappreciated and at times we felt unloved which is where love starts to fail but it is the ones that feel the love deeply that continue to fight for what is within their hearts. If you truly love someone, you cannot give up without a battle or ever let them go a day without letting them know how much you love them, how glad you are to have them in your life, and thank them for allowing you to be a part of their lives. Love is as delicate as a piece of fragile crystal that can be shattered very easily so if you love someone, hold that love very near and dear to your heart, and protect it with all that you have.

Just remember, never give up on love or finding love because in the end, when you find your one truly love – your soul mate; it will all have been worth it, as two hearts come together to make one complete soul!

Nevermind the Bite; Beware of Words

Your hands tied, your mouth glued shut as you sit and watch people tear each other apart. Why? What are they honestly gaining from it other than making someone else’s life more miserable than their own? Seriously, does it make them happy to see another person in pain? This world is truly messed up but not because of the cruelty, hatred and killing being done by people we do not know but rather the people that we trust and care about the most. Pain turns to anger, anger turns to cruelty, and cruelty turns to meanness which is what this world is all about. You turn on the television, what do you see? It is filled with someone shooting another out of anger, someone hitting their wife because they have had a bad day, and the worst of all is a parent taking the life of their own child. What did that child do to deserve their life being ripped away? Love their parent too much? Being too innocent? It honestly comes down to someone being mad, not being able to handle their emotions or anger so they take it out on the nearest and dearest person to them.

I sit daily and watch what people write hurtful words on a screen whether it is on a social networking site, a gaming site or across my messenger, and it honestly breaks my heart by realizing that people simply do not care because they do not know them in person. They do not realize that there is a person on the other side of that screen with a real heart that can truly be broken as easily as theirs. Are people truly becoming that heartless in this world? Does a person simply pick what they want to care about, and if the other people aren’t involved in that then they don’t deserve to be cared about? It’s crazy, plain and simple. People are always griping about the world we live in yet they cannot seem to step up and help it become a better place.

I was raised that two wrongs does not make a right while you see people doing it all the time, and then want to tell people that “Karma” will pay them back while they do not realize that they are right. Karma is paying them back because they are getting back what they dished out even though it should not be like that. Just because someone hurt you doesn’t mean that you have to be like them but rather be the big person, and simply say “I am sorry” whether you are right or wrong. Does being right really mean that much? Will it make your richer? Be a better person? Will it change the situation or bring a relationship back? No! However; simply saying I am sorry, and letting it go can take you a lot further. I have been guilty of doing this myself, and I will be honest, it has cost me a lot in my life which taught me a lot at the same time.

I know that I cannot change the world but if I can help one person see that hurting another is wrong in all fashion and shape, I have done what I set out to do which is to help control the anger, meanness, and cruelty in this world. I know everyone has a heart but life has put up a wall or a shield around it to protect it which is what causes people to get hurt. I have had so much hurt in my life while I refuse to allow the pain to change my tending, caring and loving heart because if I do then they have won. I believe that God gave me my tender heart to make a difference in this world, to show people that pain and suffering should not stop us from loving, and anger shouldn’t change who we are or allow us to hurt another. 

Be responsible, think long and hard before you speak, and if you have to, walk away because nothing good ever comes out of speaking in anger except for regrets. Allow your heart to overrule your mind when angry, and choose your words wisely. I have seen too many people lose their spouses because they allow their words to flow way too freely which usually causes that person to walk away, and leave them with a life of what ifs. Let’s create a better place to live while allowing our hearts to be healthier and happier. A happier life starts within our own hearts!